I just read his reply on my e-mail dated Dec. 11, 2011. I wanna cry. I don't know what to say. He is still suffering, emotionally. Nanghihina ako. I wish I could turn back time. Ako na lang sana, not his Mom. Am I selfish? I wish I could erase the pain.
I miss him, still.
I’ve been struggling with something unknown. It's been 3 weeks now. But I'm happy and thankful. Unti unti ng tinatanggap ng aking katawan kung ano man ito. It's been really hard. I have to stop working, stop drinking, stop smoking. Have to stay at home. The doctor said I need to rest my body. I've been praying, and praying. Salamat at buhay parin ako hanggang ngayon. Naalala pa rin kita. Miss kita. I know you're out there. Somewhere out there. Sana naalala mo rin ako, Pao.
Last time I talked to you
You were lonely and out of place
You were looking down on me
Lost out in space
We laid underneath the stars
Strung out and feeling brave
I watched the red orange glow
I watched you float away
Down here in the atmosphere
Garbage and city lights
You've gone to save your tired soul
You've gone to save our lives
I turned on the radio
To find you on satellite
I’m waiting for this sky to fall
I’m waiting for a sign
All we are
Is all so far
